I'm missing Russia like crazy. It could be an overall dislike for current location and/or jobless situation or maybe I'm just feeling drawn back to life overseas. Either way, something has me longing for the dirty streets and beautiful architecture of Russia. I miss my friends there, (some of) the food, and a sense that what I was doing had value. Now my time is spent filling out applications for jobs I'm 98% sure I'll never hear back on. It gets old and discouraging after a while and so perhaps it's just easier to idealize the past than be content with a frusterating present. My life is good here...it really is. I'm blessed to already know some pretty awesome people nearby and I'm looking forward to meeting more as we continue to build this new life together.
Still, I woke up grumpy this morning and I'm searching for a way to remedy that now. It is sunny this morning for the first time in a few days and I think I might go for a walk to clear my head before getting back to some applications. I guess it's just a matter of weeding out the imperfections and frustrations of my life so that I can see how truly beautiful it already is. Some days that is easier for me to do than others. Today, I miss Russia.
It appears my blog has made a liar out of me. My best intentions to write more have obviously fallen short, though I am vowing to be a bit more consistent from here on out. (You haven't heard that before, have you?!)
With that said, I have no real thoughts to share today except two rather exciting announcements.
1. I'm an Aunt! Little Ella Noelle was born last Friday making me an aunt to the cutest niece in the world. No seriously, she's the cutest.
2. I'm getting married two months from today. This is big, people. Life is a changin. Get. Ready.
I'm living in a big world that just keeps on getting bigger. No matter where I am, there are people I love and miss. I guess this is just another beautiful and painful reality of life. I'm learning to risk, dare, try, believe, and hope. Basically, I'm just learning to love.