I'm not exactly sure if I'm ready for a new year to begin, but I am certain I'm ready for this one to be over. This was a difficult year to say the least- stresses of student teaching, losing a relationship, questioning my calling, dealing with serious family health issues, really ridiculous/immature boy drama, loneliness, illness, fear, blah, blah, blah. The list goes on.
On the other hand, there have been some wonderful things that happened this year: I finished my student teaching, graduated from college, got a job, made new friends, reconnected with old friends and committed to going to Russia. But more than all of these things, I have grown a tremendous amount. I entered 2008 as a broken, hurting, confused, and scared girl. I didn't trust myself enough to believe that I had anything of real value to contribute to a conversation, a relationship, a classroom, or most importantly, the world. But at some point-in the midst of tears, questioning, hurting, and healing, it changed. I changed. I am not the same broken girl that stepped into 2008. I am whole again. My wounds have healed and are now replaced by scars-reminders of what was and no longer needs to be. I am stronger. I am wiser. I am more confident. And here is the biggest change of all: I like who I am, and love the life I live.
So welcome, 2009. I can only imagine the heartbreak, difficulties, joy and growth you hold.