Friday, July 25, 2008


Look around. What do you see?
Dreams hidden out of fear?
Reckless trust?
Cracks and scars? Love isn't perfect, you know.
Look away.
Insecurities. Doubt. Greed. Confusion. Lust. Hurt. Anger. Sin
It is beating...but for what?
Look Deeper.
Holes. Dark holes.
Ukraine. Longing. The future. Failed relationships. Death.
Hands in the air, face to the floor.
Take this beautiful, broken mess. I don't want it anymore.
May it belong to you...alone.

Tuesday, July 22, 2008


I really like life right now.

that is all.

Monday, July 14, 2008

to be known.

Tonight I went to Starbucks with my mom. As we sipped our blended lemonades, we talked about life and all of its craziness. I feel like there are so many changes and uncertainties right now that sometimes I feel like I have to give it my all just to hold on. I feel like I am at a different place in life than so many people who are close to me. I am struggling with different things, wanting different things, and doing different things. In many ways, I feel unknown.

I noticed my mom looking at me and asked her what was wrong. She said that tonight I look liked a little girl. A little girl? I felt slightly offended. A little girl, she said. She told me no one else would notice but that tonight I look liked a vulnerable, little girl.

And then we sat in silence... knowing and being known.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

the future.

"Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise..."