Monday, July 14, 2008

to be known.

Tonight I went to Starbucks with my mom. As we sipped our blended lemonades, we talked about life and all of its craziness. I feel like there are so many changes and uncertainties right now that sometimes I feel like I have to give it my all just to hold on. I feel like I am at a different place in life than so many people who are close to me. I am struggling with different things, wanting different things, and doing different things. In many ways, I feel unknown.

I noticed my mom looking at me and asked her what was wrong. She said that tonight I look liked a little girl. A little girl? I felt slightly offended. A little girl, she said. She told me no one else would notice but that tonight I look liked a vulnerable, little girl.

And then we sat in silence... knowing and being known.