Sunday, April 6, 2008


For better or worse, I am an emotional person. I think it has only been within the past few years that I've been able to admit to that. In some ways, I see this as a good thing. My heart is easily broken for those who hurt and suffer. It does not take much for me to empathize with another or want to ease another's pain. On the other hand, I sometimes experience such joy that my stomach feels as if it is about to burst. It is a wonderful feeling that I honestly can't find the words to fully explain. Yes, I am emotional. I feel things deeply-both joy and sorrow

But what an awful thing being an emotional person can be. I feel like one day I can be on top of the world and the next I can't seem to climb out from under the weight of the world. God, what purpose is there in this? All I know is that tonight I feel loneliness and dread. And no matter how much I try to talk myself out of it or remind myself what a wonderful life I have, my heart continues to ache. What am I doing? Why am I like this?

Snap out of it, Elizabeth. Life is bigger than yesterday, today, tomorrow, and especially your emotions.

I need peace.


Andrea said...

I love seeing you filled with joy. You have so much sometimes that I'm afraid to be around you... you could burst at any second! Share the joy, spread the love, and maybe when you're not feeling joyful someone whos life you touched will return the favor. ;)